do you remember?

we first saw each other in class.

intro to logic.

that night i had a friend request from you.

kept that joy internalized for years.

 

nothing happens.

who are we?

what would we talk about?

all i know is your name.

 

the next year you live across the street.

we become bolder.

texting isn’t rare but not everyday.

i love it when i see your name on the screen.

 

one night i have confidence.

after many drinks i come over.

we make bloody mary’s.

we talk books until 4am.

 

i move away.

communication continues.

i move back.

communication stops.

 

we chat here and there.

one night i see you out.

i decide to go for it.

i leave my friends and stay with you.

 

we go to a new place.

i lose you in the crowd.

you find me.

we leave. Together.

 

aside from kissing, nothing further happens.

that’s all I needed.

we wake up together.

i love it.

 

i remember everything about that morning.

 

we get out of bed.

you hide the roommate’s cat.

i’m allergic.

so thoughtful.

 

you make me breakfast.

bagel with cream cheese.

scrambled eggs.

a green smoothie & fresh pineapple.

 

you take me home.

i’m glowing.

i see you out that night.

i keep it short and distant.

 

why am I embarrassed?

i want this.

i’ve always wanted this.

i’m not ready for this.

 

that was it.

 

you went on a new adventure.

i went on my own.

i donate to your charities annually.

i think of you often.

 

i deleted you from social media.

it’s hard to see your face.

i want to know what could have happened.

do you remember? any of this?

 

recalling your body and voice.

you’re still perfect.

any of this sound familiar?

now or never.

 

“isn’t it a tragic thing. when you can see it so clearly but the other person doesn’t.” – rupi kaur