Resilient from the Depths

you broke me.

like a shark ripping through a seal.

a twig in a hurricane.

shattered.

 

i was new.

i was looking for friends.

& acceptance.

i was naïve.

 

it’s a day i’ll never get back.

what i’d do or trade to do so.

i think about it everyday.

i can’t go back though.

 

dirty.

shame.

like a hangover.

when would the sickness leave?

 

hindsight is always 20/20.

i missed all of the signs.

i still feel stupid.

i have to move forward.

 

i dealt with it on my own.

for almost a year.

i confided in friends.

that helped.

 

i moved away.

new city.

new beginning.

start over.

 

you were relentless.

texts, emails…

never giving up.

i never responded.

 

just go away.

i fear i’ll run into you.

i fear i’ll see you somewhere.

i want to forget you.

 

everyone after you will pay for it.

i hate that.

i don’t want that.

i’m trying to shake that.

 

i’ve created fight songs.

i’m riding out the wave.

i still have more to do.

i still have more to give.

 

you broke me.

i’m putting the pieces back together.

the new sand castle has imperfections.

but it’ll be the right build for someone.

 

I will not be broken.

“When people build up walls, they end up keeping other people out… but they’re also keeping themselves in.” – Karamo Brown