numbness.

i spent months writing.

two letters.

similar but different.

when would i send?

 

there’s no right time.

rip the band-aid off.

just do it.

sent.

 

welcome to my secret.

holding my breath.

letting you in.

vulnerable.

 

the waiting game.

one response immediate.

exactly what i was expecting.

nothing like i was hoping.

 

our course has now changed.

the wind in our sails.

forever different.

a new horizon.

 

i blame ignorance.

penny for your thoughts?

should someone else share.

i hope you react different.

 

where’s the relief?

i heard so much about it.

i was expecting it.

i feel numb.

 

it is what it is.

accept it.

or don’t.

i’ll move on either way.

 

second response.

hours later.

5 to be exact.

[im]patiently waiting.

 

i said take your time.

i’m pacing.

my stomach churning.

only half the party tunes in.

 

we talk for almost an hour.

it goes exceptionally well.

that relief is coming.

i can feel it.

 

tears are shed.

laughs are had.

new information is heard.

a greater bond.

 

weathered this storm before.

i’ll survive it again.

i’ve got my ship.

with the crew i need.